Christmas Time

I love Christmas. But, for the past several years, it has been one of mixed emotions and bittersweet memories. I am so thankful for my family and being able to spend time with them. I am also painfully aware of those that have gone to be with the Lord and left a gaping hole in my heart. I miss them all year long, think of them everyday, but the holidays heighten my memories and how much I miss the people I loved with all my heart. I especially miss my Nana. This is our second Christmas without her and it is just not the same. She was one of my best friends. Time is just an illusion that tricks you into believing that your heart is actually healing. I think time only dulls the ache, and can only do so for as long as you let it. When I don't dwell on what I have lost, I am OK. Anytime I think of it though, the emotions are as raw and upsetting as they have ever been. I wish that I could hug her, tell her I love her, wish her a Merry Christmas one more year. But I can't. So, I will enjoy this Christmas season and honor her memory. I will talk about her, laugh about the good times, shed a few tears, and realize how much richer my life is because she was apart of it.

Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. And for all of those missing someone this year, may God bring you a peace that transcends all others, that you can be thankful for just having known those who are no longer here and see the difference they made in your life.